At least not for me.

A lot of successful powerlifters talk about balance and enjoying a social life. I am not one of them.

Whether that's some manifestation of an obsessive compulsive tendency, or me just not being able to effectively portion shit out in my life that's how I am. It has the real potential to ruin relationships ranging from friends to loved ones. I've dealt with this type of thing in all of my life, even back when I was a level 116 strength pure on Runescape.

I tend to fall into the category of not being able to approach anything with moderation, and I follow the thought process of Clint Darden in his form of "Go All In or Quit". As anything worth doing, in my mind, is worth overdoing. This is not exactly a healthy approach but it is what I have.

I have had some difficult times in the past with depression, apathy, and general self hate but I am not afraid of those times and I am not one to regret those thoughts as they come. I think that people like me will always have them. We're all fucked in our own, beautiful ways.

Powerlifting might be the stupidest endeavor to throw my soul into, and it could be time better well spent studying, pursuing knowledge, or pursuing comfort in my life or my loved ones but it's what I've chosen. I prioritize this over most everything and would gladly move things around for my beautiful wife, but I'd be lying to you if I told you I wouldn't find a way to get the training session in, or find a way to get my work done. That's just the way things are situated now.

I know full well these priorities may change in the future, or will NEED to change in order for me to continue how I am. This full hearted following of a passion and pursuit of "greatness" or "legacy" isn't exactly something you can do for 25 years straight. You either succeed or you break. And when that time comes I hope i'll be mature enough to see it, but in the meantime my goal is to be the best I can be and push others to do the same.

For now, there is no balance. It is all deep water.