Why do I practically go silent during meet prep? What an awesome question I asked myself while at the gym today. I basically just disappear. I looked back through my logs today and omg it's SO hard to write during my peaking cycle. I realized this before my last meet in the weeks leading up to the U.S Open as well. I guess because, in a way, writing is a release. You know, where I can express myself, reflect, and honestly it's very helpful in the whole journey to self awareness thing. However, during meet prep I'm basically on auto-pilot. I just do what I need to do, and I don't really deviate from the plan. Writing and expressing my feelings would require me to acknowledge them in some way, and honestly with the things that have been going on in my life, I really cannot afford to give any attention to my feelings. Emotions do not exist until the weights slam on the floor and I see 3 white lights on my 3rd deadlift attempt. This causes a really interesting reaction after the meet, where I am literally flooded with every emotion possible and it's extremely hard to process. If anyone has gone out to eat with me after a meet, even after my best performance, I am almost in tears. Am I the only weirdo that does this? I guess I could also say that meet day is extremely mentally and emotionally exhausting for me. It is for everyone I think. I'm a pretty good performer, I mean I have been doing it my entire life, in front of hundreds of people. BUT it takes a lot to put on the straight face, suck it up, push my fears and doubts to a place they cannot escape, and perform. Isn't it like this for everyone, or am I just weird? Ah.
I digress, we are getting entirely too deep right now for two weeks out (lol lol). Most of the time we use things like Facebook, Instagram, etc. to distract us, right? Sitting at the doctor's office bored, what's up Instagram. Laying in bed at night, lets refresh our Facebook feed and see what's going on. Except, for me, I feel like those kinds of distractions at this point in the game, can be detrimental.
This prep is flawless, and it will continue to be flawless as it comes to an end. Want to know why? Because I know how to do this shit. Yes. Admitting I know what the hell I am doing for once. I am not following a methodology with no idea how that shit works. I know how it works, every part of it. I know how the peaking cycle works, I know my body, I know what to do. All of it, I know how to do it.
Last week I chose my 1st and 2nd attempts, and then picked out some numbers, based on a formula, for possible 3rds (I say "chose" because the numbers from lbs to kilos are different obviously and I had to pick numbers that were the closest to what the formula gave me) Casey said something I liked the one day: 1st and 2nds are based on the formula, and then you know what 3rds are? Those are yours. 3rd attempts are Tarra's choice. My choice, because it's my meet. This one is for me.
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Guess I could talk about training as it winds down a little bit. Dialing back training a bit during my 90% week for my 2nd pressing day.
Wide Grip Bench: 115x2x25
Rolling Triceps: 20x3x30
Rear Delt: Some cool green band I found 3x30
Cable Extentions: 30x4x20
Pull Ups: 1x10 (I just like to do some every day hehe)