Okay okay.  I know this is seriously like the 15th time I've said I had a "plan".  But really, the other times I was just convincing myself I had a plan, when in reality I might as well have been driving completely drunk.  Okay, maybe I wasn't totally clueless.  I mean,  I was onto some things I guess, but at the end of the day I didn't really have any solid guidance.  I needed that, especially when it came to me being hurt.

SO SO SO excited to share this, because for the first time in two months I finally feel like I'm progressing, instead of staying stagnant, and in a place where I really didn't know when to expect things to get better.  When I was in California at Boss of Bosses, my teammate Dani Overcash introduced me to a chiropractor/lifter that works out of Boss Barbell, Jordan Shallow.  I spent a little bit of time after weigh ins picking his brain about what was going on with my back and kind of brain storming on what my next move should be.  I reached out again when I got my x-Ray, and then started asking questions about what he thought might be best to do.  LONG story short, now I have this amazing human helping me with my training & trying to get me back in the game.  I'm also extremely lucky to have been referred to an awesome new chiropractor.  After my first appointment with him I felt a lot of relief.

Once I got over the whole "oh poor me" phase that came after my less than ideal meet, and basically being hopeless, because I couldn't even get out of bed without pain....THEN I started to actually utilize my support system and ask questions.  I finally realized that doing the same shit I've always done, was definitely not going to get me where I needed to be.

I have felt like I've been following this circular pattern for a while, you know, like a cycle.  BUT IT JUST NEVER STOPS.  It's just my life on repeat, and maybe that's why some of my posts get a little redundant and it'll be me, like, "first step to happiness..." or "how I'm gonna do me" and blah blah blah.  I'm really just trying to figure my shit out.  And THAT'S OKAY.  We are human.  We are allowed to change our minds about what makes us happy, what we like and don't like, what we want to do with our lives, just anything.  One day I'm like, I wanna crossfit, it looks fun AF, and the next day I'm like crossfit?  I wanna lift heavy things.  You don't have to KNOW anything.  It is perfectly fine not to know.  Do what feels good, what feels right, and follow that.  Right now, I feel really great about the changes I've made regarding my lifting.  I bought some oly shoes, because I actually really love how they feel, I'm going to get a lever belt (cause I like them better), sumo deadlifts? Sure. Why not? (they feel good right now too).  And for the first time in the history of EVER, I am trying something new for my training.  I'm starting at 0, and I think it will be fun to rebuild & surpass what I have already accomplished.  It's not gonna be all rainbows and unicorns, it's going to be hard, but I'm ready, and I believe in the people I'm working with, just as much as they believe in me.  It's gonna be okay.

Thursday's Sesh was like dis:

Mobility Circuit
(I have a diff one of these for each training day & they vary)

Bottom Up  KB Press:  3x10 @ 10lbs

Bench (feet up): 4x8 @ 135 (increasing 10lbs per week)

Video here ----> Baby Bench

Incline DB Press: 4x10 @ 25lbs

Overhead DB Extensions: 3x12 @ 15lbs

Baby weights for now.  Stay tuned.