I've said it before and I'll say it again, and then next week I'll say it again. I had someone give me some shit about always posting about growing and changing, the moment you STOP growing and changing you're in trouble in my opinion. So, say whatever you want but I'm more than happy to be changing and learning more about myself every day.
I've been teetering for quite a bit regarding diet changes and yesterday I reached out to my friend for some help. I really just couldn't decide between macros or a strict meal plan, or...I don't even know honestly. I don't like to be restricted and I hate the mindset I tend to get into when I have a strict meal plan with set foods, etc. I've done well with macros in the past, I've just always lacked the accountability piece. So, what it really comes down to is my mindset. I like my body right now, honestly, I'm in a good place with it, but I think it's about time to rein it in and so, that's what we're gonna do. I don't have a weight class, and I really don't think I'll ever truly focus on one again...it just isn't something that is important to me anymore.
I'd say I am your classic yo-yo dieter. I lose the same 10-15 lbs and gain it back over and over again. While I understand the general concept of "diet" I clearly have been missing out on some things. So, here we are again. I think it would be great to lose around 10-12 lbs and then once I'm at the weight I desire, reverse diet a bit and get my cals up. This week I'm starting at about 2300 cals, which is something I'm really happy about, especially since my fats are pretty high for me, 80g. There are tons of cals we can pull from that when the time comes. Weight is at 191.8 and has been there for a few months at this point. 190ish is where my body is comfortable, but I prefer 180-something.
I don't type this to announce to the world that I'm dieting again, I don't really want to think of it as a diet. I never do, like yes, it's my diet, but I want this to be long term and sustainable for me. Not something I do for a few months, struggle to maintain, and then again, gain the weight back. 2016 was a shit storm, literally, from start to finish. Now, I like to think I'm in a really really good place, and it's time I start treating myself with the kindness I've been preaching, only this time it's about my body.