Hi, my name is Tarra.  If you don't already know me, let me introduce myself.  I am a giant asshole, the biggest, worst kind.  The kind that is stubborn and doesn't listen to anyone, ever.  Okay, maybe not ever, but just not a lot.  I'm working on the whole "listening" thing.  I'm hard headed, what can I say.  But, it's been 3 months of me trying to figure out what's wrong with me, trying different things, being in denial, etc.  I guess today, I GUESS, I accept that I'm not going to just magically wake up one morning without back pain.

I finally saw and Ortho this morning, and got my script for an MRI...one I can actually use. I'm just waiting for an authorization number from my insurance company, so I can schedule it.  Awesome news is that structurally, my spine looks pretty good via X-Ray according to the Dr.  I've had some back and forth and I've had someone tell me it wasn't, so it was good to hear that my vertebrae are a-okay.

Now, here's the shitty part. Upon returning from BOB3 when my teammate Casey said take 8-10 weeks and don't do anything...I gave it....3.  I should've listened, of course.  WELL, I GUESS after 3 months, I will listen now.  Which is just great because I'm basically taking myself out of the gym for twice as long as I probably ever needed to in the first place. Oh, Tarra, why do you do this to yourself? Ugh.  So, I've already been kind of avoiding the gym, due to frustration about not being able to do anything, plus, I'm basically a child and I always end up doing something bad when I'm there.  So, we are at 1.5 weeks.  Here's to the next 8-10 weeks of doing absolutely nothing.  Perhaps I'll do some light walking.  I also should be adding the yoga in, in about 2-3 weeks.  Quite honestly I'm even a little hesitant about that due to the pain that comes when I bend forward to touch my toes.  But....we will see how it goes.

All logs for the next 2-3 months will be numbered and include updates on progress (if any), what I'm occupying my time with, what kind of personal growth I'm having, weight loss, food, maybe I'll even share some stuff about books I'm reading.