This is transparency. And it's not even fully so. I'm sitting outside of my therapy appointment. This doesn't mean i'm crazy. I mean I MIGHT be, but this isn't the deciding factor.
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I never thought I'd be at this point in my life, but I never thought I'd be capable of squatting 900lbs. Until I was. I don't have all of my life figured out. I won't and I don't think anyone really does. We just do our best to figure it out on our best days and our worst days. Sometimes we can only manage to get by, and sometimes we just manage to hang on.
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I have friends that use counseling. I have friends that could probably benefit from it. I know I do. And I wanted to post this just to make it seem more normal. I have a good source of income, I am trying to become a firefighter, i'm very strong in relation to the normal person, and I am happy. But i'm sad too. I can also objectively see that I am not the culmination of my emotions nor the struggles I face. I'm a person WITH them. Just as you are not the fat you have, the difficulties you face, or the job you hold. You're a human with these things.
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Therapy isn't bad. It's not good either. It's just a tool. I use it to re center myself and attempt to become the best version of myself I can be. I'm not saying you need it, but if you struggle with your connections sometimes, realize you are in control. Invest in yourself. $100 a few times a month is easily implemented into a budget for an average 25+ year old. And reaching out to someone for help is free.
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Transparency Tuesday.