I mentioned that I was working with friends of mine with my diet. I felt like I needed structure to get back on track with my goals. I gained about 5lbs since I've moved. I know, not a big deal but it's not all muscle gain necessarily, and believe it or not, it affects my performance. I learned a few things in the short term I was working with them. We agreed to about 8 weeks and I gave myself 12-14 weeks as a goal to improve and learn from this experience.

Going back and forth on whether upping my calories or keeping a low/moderate calorie based diet was the way to go. As I was talking to Dave about this, I realized I was losing sight of what my goals were and my purpose was. I caught myself "diet hopping" and questioning everything that was either suggested to me or doubting myself from what I've learned about "dieting" from the past. I mean I have been doing this for a few years and learned from the best of the best. Not that I'm a professional but I should know my body better than anybody.

Did I mention I hate the word "diet." It's more about eating for performance (or for whatever you are trying to achieve) while keeping a balanced life. I'm not eating for aesthetics and although I like to stay fit (and thick), I'm also training to get strong(er). So I need to get this obsession I have created in my head out and just work my ass off. Period. Sometimes you just need to go back to the basics. It's that simple- but stick to it and seek it through.

Lesson learned.

Step back every once in awhile and go back to the why. Why are you doing this and who are you doing this for? After all the mind is what kicks off what you are trying to get after. Think clearly. Think with purpose.