I was originally diagnosed with ulcerative proctitis which is annoying but easily manageable. However it turned into ulcerative colitis, fast. I trained at 235-238 the last 6 months. Four weeks ago (3 weeks pre XPC finals) issues started. I sit here today about 40lbs lighter over the course of four weeks. I feel like death. I don't look like myself. It hurts. It's frustrating. But it's given me a new perspective. Step 1 right now is just getting an appetite back and hydrating. Thank you to friends, family, and everyone for their kind words. I plan on looking back at this in humor but also appreciation.
And special thank you to @yessie_mart for being my rock. I love you.