At this point I'm fairly certain you are all sick of me bitching. But life just keeps on coming. And here's some old shit, and some new shit. And believe me, I'm not asking for sympathy, I'm just being real with you all here...
The bad:
I had planned on doing the US Open in May. Training leading up to this point was not good. I've been struggling with a few things:
1. Recovery- the two drugs I'm on are certainly making me feel better, but they also make recovery between sessions a little tougher.
2. Functionality?- I don't know what else to call it, but I haven't been able to properly squat for months. Looking back at some of my old videos, I had figured out what my squat should look and feel like. Just as I was making progress, my health forced me to reset. After that reset, my TFL's were a problem area...to the point where it was changing the mechanics of my squat. I was very quad dominant which is all bad for my squat. JL and the RPR method have helped, but I'm still not back to normal. The last two weeks were a step in the right direction.
3. The speed and execution of all my lifts is lack luster. I'm lacking confidence. I had a conversation with Ryan, one of my staff members, about this very thing. I can't quite put my finger on what's going on, but I'll use it as a challenge to figure it out.
4. The real reason I'm not going to San Diego for the Open- my sweet and beautiful 7 year old mastiff has cancer. I don't know if she'll make it much longer than May, and there's no way in hell I'm getting on a plane to go across the country with her health fading. She was my first and I love her just as anyone loves their best friend.
The good:
1. This is life. Life goes on.
2. No one is in control.
3. I'm thankful for every body and every thing that I have in my life.
I'll be doing the UPA meet at Old School Iron in Cleveland on April 28th barring any natural or gym related disasters. I think I need a disclaimer at this point given my previous history.