With days off, sick days, and when work consumes most of my day; I tried not to think how all those things were effecting my training. Weights have felt heavy the last few weeks but I managed not to let that get into my head.
Saturday comes. It's squat day and my last heavy day before the meet. Goggins planned 320 for 2 x 2. I showed Casey and he suggested go for a heavy single after doubling 320. I didn't see the point of doubling the same weight. After a shaky 320, Casey said "go 350."
Cool.
In my head, not cool. I have yet missed a lift and I know that plays a huge mental part in training. I started to think how heavy the weights have been feeling. My mind was running but I refused to say "are you sure" or anything that sounded remotely not confident.
Bar was loaded (and misloaded) and squatted 360.
I was happy and relieved. I told Casey that I wasn't sure about the weight. And he replied, "why didn't you tell me?" I just didn't want it to be true and verbally express the uncertainty and out that out into the universe. Your body is way more capable than your mind thinks.
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