It's has been four days since I've competed and for those four days I've woke up and felt like something was missing.
Rewind three weeks ago in the middle of my peak; I'd wake every morning and count the days down, telling myself I'm ready to get this shit over. Being wore out physically and mentally, I used the date (of the competition) as a metaphorical light at the end of the tunnel. Twenty more days, nineteen more days, and so on and so forth.
Just like that those days blew by I competed and it's gone. All the goals, all the work, the good shit the bad shit and everything in between. I'm a blunt Guy, So I'm going to be upfront per the usual. You lower the supplements, and your hormones start fluctuating making you irritable as fuck.
When you spend days, weeks, and months on end letting something consume you, it will have some adverse effect on your psyche. Over time I've determined that this is just part of the "process" for lack of a better term.
A lot of us deal with anxiety and depression I've said it a million times powerlifting is the " land of broken toys." Someone mentioned on a post of mine in which I was making fun of some kid at the Arnold that with the platform I have I should use it for something positive. I had every intention of Being me and shredding him, but I had the good voice on my shoulder this morning.
With that said what I suggest is get right back in the gym. Sure PR's are not going to be rolling in, but again that's the process. Instead of expecting to be on ten set small goals. Hell Just making it to the gym to do the lame "post meet de-load" can even be a goal. Give yourself credit for accepting the situation. Growth isn't always about our physical selves. #elitefts #5thset